So here's the official update... I live in Japan now with my wonderful husband and our 19 month old daughter (she was about 15 months when we arrived). I started work here and met many, many new people...always a hard thing to do when you're self conscious.
I've battled inner thoughts about not being good enough in every aspect of my life. I've countered feelings of judgment, truly believing that everyone was judging me because of my weight. And I finally reached a breaking point where I knew I had to lose this weight for my personal and professional life. I tried a few crash diets and failed miserably, but I finally mustered up the willpower from somewhere and began my real journey...(again >.>)
I started at about 209 lbs. For the first two weeks, I ate 1200 calories...or less. I know what you're thinking, and it was definitely not enough! I realized that when I could barely perform my workouts, let alone job. I did some research online and realized I needed to up my calories to nearly 1500 so that I could workout. It was actually really difficult to make sure I was eating enough each day, but it definitely paid off... I was kicking butt during my workouts (Biggest Loser Cardio Max) and seeing the numbers finally fall.
I'm happy to say that after six weeks (roughly), I have lost ten pounds. I am now 199 and slowly but surely seeing the changes in my body and mentality. I didn't let myself post anything on this blog until I knew I was serious and that meant hitting 199. So here I am, hopefully reporting daily or weekly updates about my weight loss. I have a goal to be 198 by Tuesday so I'm halfway there with four days left.
I will try to give more details about the plan I'm following in my next posting...but for now I just wanted to commemorate my huge accomplishment and say...IM BACK!!!
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