Oh yeah!

Woke up this morning and was 213.6! I brought my husband in to show him the number and it went down to 212.6! So I honestly don't know what my true weight loss is, but as long as it's going DOWN I'm okay!

I finally feel like I'm back on track and disciplined to do this because it's what I need to turn my life around. I have quite a ways to go, but my first sub-goal is to be 199 by June 1st. I have about 13-14 more pounds to go in just about 4 weeks. Doable? I hope so!

It's been a few days!

Well, since I last wrote I've fallen off and restarted so bad and good. My cold really got to me and I basically cheated all weekend. BUT I did get rested up and I've been back at it since Monday. My husband is even helping me out by taking the batteries out of the scale so I stop weighing in everyday (and potentially get discouraged).

Tuesday was hard. We had a family get together and those are always surrounded by food. I brought a Lean Cuisine with me and I ate that while others ate tacos. My cute grandma ate ice cream in front of me, but it was fun rather than cruel :)

Today I did a 50 minute tae bo session and took the baby and dog for a half hour walk. I might even do another half hour on the treadmill tonight!

No exercise today

I was 216.0 this morning. I didn't make myself get up and I've already taken some NyQuil so I'm not working out tonight. Despite this physical set back, I haven't fallen off my diet and I'm very proud of that. It's only Thursday of the first week, but my diet has been perfect all week.

I wonder if I was pushing myself too hard and that's why I got sick. I was working out at 5 AM and then around 10 PM each night (repeat), so maybe my body didn't have enough energy to fight off the germs that got me sick. I'm just hoping to get better soon and the semester is almost over too so things should be looking up.

Siiiiiick :(

Well, yesterday went well and today has gone well so far...except I'm sick and just feel poopy. I woke up at 5 AM and did 30 minutes on the treadmill followed by healthy eating all day, but I have been exhausted and under the weather all afternoon. I'm debating on doing my evening workout. I know I would feel bad mentally if I didn't, but I'm kind of thinking I should just call it a night and rest.

In other news, I failed horribly at waiting to weigh in =P I weighed in at 217.4. I'm just not a patient person. I hate not knowing so I stepped on the scale. I'm hoping to see a little loss tomorrow morning.

Well, I've decided I'm off to bed now. I'm going to rest and plan to be up at 5 AM again to walk on the treadmill. Goodnight!

Another successful day!

I woke up at 5:30 this morning (believe it or not) and walked a half hour on the treadmill. I drank a shake for breakfast and had lean cuisines for lunch and dinner. I'd say my calorie intake was around 1200 and my calorie output around 400. I just finished a 50 minute tae bo workout and I'm wiped! I'll be up at 5 AM tomorrow to do it all again!

This just feels right. I know it's only day 2, but I'm feeling good. My mental game is resisting the urge to weigh in for a while so that I have a more significant weight loss. I'd love to feel my clothes start to get looser before finding out how many pounds I've lost. I'm looking forward to getting out of maternity clothes for a while and into some jeans with buttons! What a funny wish... But that's the life of post pregnancy!

I have a long distance friend losing weight too and sharing info tonight was really motivating. Also, I only have 9 more days of work (over a period of 2 weeks) until I'm home for the summer and can put all my energy on my daughter and weight loss. I hope... I WILL up my workouts from 2-a-day to 3-a-day during the summer (morning, afternoon, and night).

A longtime friend of mine is getting married in September and I'm a bridesmaid. It's actually really motivating me to lose weight for the big day. I don't know what would be a good, let alone realistic, weight loss for that day, but maybe just a smaller (near gone) double chin and tummy would suffice :)

A lot can change in 24 hours

Well, I weighed in at 214.6 this morning. Awesome, right? That's another 2 pounds down... It should have been enough to keep me going, but I ended up pulling the plug on the good ol' Hcg thing.

I even felt better this morning than the last two days! So why did I quit? To be honest with you, I just wasn't strong enough mentally. Maybe I'll try it again another day (more realistically not...) but the difference between this time and last time is probably the amount of weight to lose (an extra 30) and having a baby in the home.

It was too much for me to ask my husband to do everything because I couldn't touch my daughter's baby wipes, soap, or lotion for fear of stalling... And being too tired, cranky, and lightheaded to take care of her. I realize I might have started to feel better eventually, but doing this diet again kind of showed me that it's not the right fit for me now that I'm at a different point in my life.

So! What did I do today then? Well, I went to Buffalo Wild Wings for lunch. I know, horrible! But afterwards, I went to Walmart and bought some Lean Cuisines for the week and I'm going to finish off my healthy Hcg food and diet at about 1100 calories a day plus morning and evening workouts.

After my baby went to sleep, I did a 40 minute Tae Bo workout (Billy Blanks) AND 30 minutes walking on the treadmill at 2.0-3.0 speed. The reason I had decided to do Hcg in the first place is that after giving birth, working out was HARD and...different. So I thought I needed to lose weight so I could workout at a lighter weight. However, working out tonight showed me that I just needed to give myself an extra month of healing before working out. It felt amazing tonight to sweat, not painful. I could actually do the moves and push myself.

So, in summary, in 24 hours I have quit Hcg and started working out. I don't consider this a failure but an enlightenment of what's right for me.

A most difficult day

I just want to eat.

Plain and simple, that's how I feel. I haven't denied myself food for the last year during pregnancy and my lack of any discipline whatsoever is showing today. I am struggling to stay on track. I had the same thing to eat today as yesterday. I enjoy the food when I eat it, I'm just miserable in between meals! :( I know my dedication is not where it once was and I feel like a stubborn horse being broken in.

Well, my stats for today don't reflect how I'm feeling. I weighed 216.2 this morning. That's 4 lbs down from the gorging! I guess I'm just not AS ecstatic as I would have been last round because I have so much more to lose this time. My goal is still 140, and I know I have a while to go.

I feel confident that today will come to a close successfully, but I hope tomorrow is easier. I'd like to just give a special thanks to my hubby for helping me stay strong today, despite my constant attempts to go out to eat at Buffalo Wild Wings =P

First day on the VLCD

Well, I made it through the first day of only 500 calories! I had chicken, lettuce, an apple, and a piece of Melba toast for lunch and shrimp, cucumbers, strawberries, and another piece of Melba toast for dinner. I squeezed some lemon juice and sprinkled some pepper on the meats and it was very tasty.
I admit, I was starving most of the day, but I kept my mind off of it by playing with my daughter and telling myself it's worth it. I had moments of weakness this evening where I came too close to quitting but somehow I'm still on track. If this is day one, I'm pretty nervous for day two.
Hoping for a good weigh-in tomorrow! Oh, this morning I was 220.2 so I obviously gained from the gorge day so hope to go down drastically tomorrow.

I'm back!

Oh my goodness. I cannot believe an entire year has passed since I was actively writing on this blog. Well, a lot has certainly happened! I had a baby, graduated from graduate school, moved into a house, and started a new job. WOW! I wouldn't have believed a year ago I would accomplish all this! But here I am. New beautiful happy healthy baby and my life feels complete. The only thing I have left to accomplish is my weight loss. I really let myself go during pregnancy. I gained about 60 pounds on top of 180 so I topped the scale at 240 before birth. I felt so huge! So far, post-pregnancy, I have come down about 22 pounds. So I'm currently sitting here writing this at 218 pounds (218.4 to be exact). So I started hcg again today. I took the drops so far at 6:30 AM and 11:00 AM. I'm gorging today so I ate scrambled eggs with cheese for breakfast, a caramel latte, and then ribs and a sweet potato for lunch. I'm going to have McDonald's for dinner with a Dairy Queen blizzard for desert. I decided to only do one gorge day because I've been eating so much fattening food in preparation for this all week. Some may disagree with my decision but it's what I've decided for myself. I'm off work the next 3 days so I want to get as much detoxing done while at home as possible. I'm going grocery shopping in about an hour and I'm ready to do this again. I have at least 2 rounds in my future so hopefully today is the first day of the rest of my life! 218 now... My goal is 140 in the end (at least). I'll try to write everyday and update on my weight loss!