Well, I'm feeling a little sense of deja vu right now. I've been here before. I don't know why I let myself fall off and on diets as often as I do. I'm sure I'm not the only one who does this yo-yo thing, but it's a bit depressing to look back on my blog posts and see how far I went and then didn't go any further.
Luckily, I'm not here with total bad news. I took a "break" from my diet for a few weeks and didn't work out. However, I'm now back on track and continuing toward my goal. I've got a lighter work load at my job which makes things a little easier to handle at home in regards to food preparation and working out.
I'm so grateful to say that the weight I had lost over the summer stayed off, though! I had lost about ten pounds and was so happy to be in One-derland. Lucky for me, that weight stayed off even when I wasn't dieting anymore, so my body has settled in the upper 190s. That just goes to show me that when I was working out, I was doing it the right way and slowly enough that my body didn't retaliate when I started eating regularly again. Progress!
So I'm doing nearly the same thing as before but trying to incorporate more natural foods into my diet. Before I was eating processed frozen meals for the convenience, but those became old after a few months. I was also eating a lot of frozen pasta, and I knew that it couldn't be good for what I was trying to accomplish.
So I restarted a few days ago, thanks to the motivation of a new season of the Biggest Loser TV show. I weighed in on the first day at 89.9 kg (198.1 lbs), and I weighed in this morning at 88.7 (195.5). For only a few days, the weight is coming off much too quickly, but I believe it's probably a lot of water weight at this point. I had only wanted to hit 89.0 kg by the end of the week, so I guess I'm getting a little bit of a jump start.
Here's what my daily meals look like:
Breakfast: a banana, a small orange (I go with whatever's in season here because fruit is so expensive here), a granola bar, and two hard-boiled egg whites (~300 calories)
Lunch: one cup of cooked white rice, 4 oz. salmon, a side of vegetable (~5-600 calories)
Dinner: Large bowl of lettuce with tomatoes, broccoli, crackers, cheese, imitation crab (~350 calories)
So my total caloric intake is around 1200 each day.
I'm doing the Biggest Loser workout again also. I decided the Tae Bo was honestly not pushing me enough or building enough muscle. I liked the way the Biggest Loser pushed me and clearly gave me the tools to keep the weight off since my body was maintaining while I ate regularly. It's a six-week program, so I've decided to shoot for 85 kg (187.4 lbs) by the end. I think that's a reasonable goal without stressing me out. Once the six weeks are over, I'll have another two or three weeks before my dad and sister arrive, so maybe I can lose a little more before then.
Regardless of where I am at the end of these six weeks or even the end of the year, I'm really looking forward to just continuing on this journey once more. I'm faking it until I make it in the willpower department. I'm not necessarily enjoying the diet, but I'm trying to stay focused on the simple fact that it must be done. If I want to bring another child into this world, I've gotta do it from a lower starting weight than before. The high bloody pressure I had when I was first pregnant was pretty dangerous, and it'd be nice to have a pregnancy without that issue.
Ideally, it'd be nice to hit my goal weight of 145 lbs (24.9 BMI) before conceiving next, but I'll be happy to see around 160 even. I have significant stages of weight loss that I believe will be emotionally healing to me as well.
180: pre-pregnancy weight
160: high school weight
145: healthy BMI weight
So that's what's happening on my journey at this moment. Hopefully I'll have some good news to report as the weeks go on! Wish me luck!
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